It doesn't happen all at once...

And still no baby

Baby is taking her sweet time coming out to meet us. I will be 41 weeks on Monday, which makes me 40w5d today. I honestly never thought I’m make it through the week. Boy was I wrong.

I had my 40 week appointment on Monday. Everything was the same as 39 weeks. Still only 1.5cm dialated. The Dr. stripped my membranes in hopes of that helping things along. I also confirmed my appointment for Thursday (two days ago) for an ultrasound to see how baby was doing and to see if I progressed any farther. My fingers were tightly crossed that I wouldn’t need that appointment. Thursday came and off to the doctors I went. If I couldn’t see my baby in real life I thought at least I would get to see her on the ultrasound. Considering we hadn’t had an ultrasound since 2o weeks I was excited. She is cute as a button and passed all the marks they look for once you go passed 40 weeks. They checked me again, no further along. They stripped my membranes again. Still no labor.

I can’t help but feel like I won’t go into labor. I couldn’t get pregnant, and here just another thing that’s wrong with me.

I have an appointment for Monday to check baby again, a non stress test. Just to make she she is ok in there. From there we discuss induction. Depending on the results of the non stress test it’s really up to me. I’m at a cross roads. I want her out bad. I want to meet her. I want to be able to sleep again. But at the same time I want to let her stay in there for as long as she wants/needs to if everything is ok.

Crossing my fingers I go into labor between now and Monday. Sounds like a good idea but I doubt it’s what will really happen.

39 Weeks 6 Days

And no baby yet :(

Waiting for Baby

I’m still waiting for baby to make her entrance. As far as I can tell I haven’t had any signs of labor. Then again I’ve never been in labor, so would I know?  I had my 39 week appointment yesterday. I’ve progressed a little, 1.5 cm and 80% effaced. My Dr. said there was a 50% chance I would have her this week. I suppose the positive side of this is the longer she waits, the longer my maternity leave will go into summer, which will be nice! She went ahead and scheduled me for two appointments next week, one on Monday (my due date) and one on Thursday. Her hope was that if we made them I wouldn’t need them. I go to an OB where the doctors rotate call for delivery so they like to rotate you through the doctors. I rotated through once and then started to see the one I liked the best for all of my appointments. I knew fully well that the chances of her delivering my baby were slim, and I was/am ok with that, but I really like seeing her for all of my appointments. Yesterday when I tried to make my two appointments for next week with her I learned she will be on vacation. I almost cried at the reception desk. I’m ok with her not being the delivering doctor, but I wasn’t prepared for her to be on vacation for what could be making induction plans. Here’s to really hoping I don’t need those two appointments.

I’m still working. I want to work as long as possible so I can have as long as possible off. No need for me to sit at home now waiting. At the same time though I’m kind of nervous about going into labor or having my water break at work. I’m more uncomfortable every day and I really want to meet this sweet little girl. I can’t believe it really could be any day now. I woke up this morning thinking I had made it through one more night and wondering if today could be the day. I guess we’ll see.

39 Weeks…

…and baby is still snuggled warmly in my uterus. One week from today is my due date. I can’t even believe it. It seems like it was only weeks ago I was graduating from the fertility clinic.

I’m so excited and so nervous all in one. I’m ready for her to be here. In general I think I’m doing pretty well. Everyday I’m a little more uncomfortable, but I know in the end it will all be worth it. I’m still hoping she will come a few days early, but only time till tell.

38 Weeks, Oh My

I don’t even know where to start. So much has been going on these past couple of weeks. My Gram has been in and out of the hospital here in NC. Fortunately one of my aunts came down from NY to stay with her. It’s normally just my husband, myself and my Gram here. It was really hard for me to juggle being 36/37 weeks pregnant, still working full time and going to the hospital every day. My aunt being here relieved some of that burden.

As for being 38 weeks. Wow. I can’t even believe it. Last week when I hit 37 weeks/full term I started living in a constant paranoia that I was going to go into labor at any second. It’s somewhat worn off, but the whole not knowing thing, it throws me all out of whack. Had my OB appt of the week today. Everything looks good. Up 23 pounds total. 1cm dilated and 60% effaced, which according to the Dr. is right on track. My only complaints are minor swelling in my feet and ankles (which only started two weeks ago so I really can’t complain) and my achy hips. My hips kill me at night. This started around 20 weeks and was on and off not too bad. It’s horrible now.

I am so excited to meet our little baby. I can’t even believe it, sometime in the next three weeks she will for sure be here. I melt just thinking about it.